First time pregnant
I am pregnant for the first time and I live on a small remote island. This is my story.
Part 10: The start of the third trimester
It’s the start of July, week 27 and according to an online pregnancy App I’ve been using is officially the first week of the third trimester. I can’t believe how quickly the time was passing me by - before we knew it we were going to be fully fledged parents! We were now counting down the days, not months - the App said we had some 90 days left until my estimated due date and suddenly it all seemed very real. It got me very scared and yet very excited!
The App also tells me that if the baby was to arrive prematurely anytime from this point on, they would have a fairly good chance of survival which is so reassuring to know. I have developed a real sense of love and attachment to this child, all I ever want is for them to be safe and healthy! Now, whilst I am still doing my best to avoid any and all information on birth and delivery, just to not give myself undue reason to stress, I am starting to consider various pain relief options for the delivery. My local hospital doesn’t offer an epidural treatment (which I thoroughly agree with as I wouldn’t want to feel disconnected from the baby and the birth experience as a whole) so I am left with paracetamol, STEM machine, local injection and laughing gas.
As you can probably tell, I feel a little nervous so by this point I had joined all the pregnancy and new mum forums I could find on Facebook and Reddit. I guess my “baby brain” has completely overtaken the rest of my personality as all I want to do now is talk about pregnancy and newborns with other mums and mums-to-be. Finding a community online and reading stories from other mums intrigues me, reassures me, and in the moments of realisation just how real this life changing situation is, calms me down. I found myself debating, discussing, laughing and crying with the rest of the community and have become completely immersed in the world of pregnancy and parenthood.
At the same time, my body found itself immersed in the realities of carrying a baby. We continue to go on our usual evening walks (usually with our pet duck in tow) and I recently found myself having various aches and pains. I feel an uncomfortable stretch in the lower muscles of my belly, where I now felt the baby was located and also have sharp pains in my lower back. I will mention these sensations to the midwife next time I see them but my mind tells me these are normal and to be expected - the baby was shifting the center of my gravity and was becoming heavier and heavier by the day. I have a hot bath, a nice cup of tea, lay down for a while and it all gets better.
In the last two weeks or so I had developed a definite baby bump which I was very proud of. Yes, for the first time in my life I was indeed proud of a big belly! Here are a couple of photos from weeks 26 and 27!
I am not sure of this is at all related to pregnancy, but recently I have been having really bad nightmares - I am always being chased, stalked, watched and attacked by ghosts, monsters, goblins, witches, daleks - you name it! I am a child of the 90’s which means I grew up with computer games and television and it all seems to be coming back to haunt me now! I am so lucky to wake up next to James who gives me a hug and reassures me that we are safe, but waking up in a startle is becoming a rather annoying part of my nights.
The happier side, of course, is the increased movements of the baby. My little one is active all day through the day and is so lovely to feel them happy and active. I feel definite pressure in parts of my belly and sometimes if I poke around, I can identify a foot poking me as it usually feels softer all around it! And then it moves and there is another foot poking somewhere else! My belly moves all by itself and as much as it is super alien and weird, It is also so magical. The downside is that I am often feeling bruised on the inside and the movements can get rather uncomfortable and sometimes painful, but magical nonetheless.
These days I spend a lot of time working on my blog, rather than on any farming project - I let James take care of the animals and gardens and he does a great job! Our new baby chicks have recently hatched and the older ones are growing well in their nursery brooder so there is nothing left for me to worry about!